Do you feel like you're the only person who suffers with a mental health illness? Do you feel like that no matter how much you try and explain it to someone they won't truly understand what it feels like?
It's okay.
I constantly feel like I live in this little bubble, where i'm surrounded by all of these thoughts that try and drag me down and take me away from reality. But there is one thing that I have begun to learn, and that is that, it's okay.
It is okay to feel alone sometimes. It is okay to feel like no one understands what you're going through, and it is okay to feel like you can't speak about your problems to your nearest and dearest.
Mental health illnesses are SO common, but we don't realise it. We don't realise that probably, every person we look at or talk to are feeling the exact same as we are. We don't realise that it is probably SO EASY to get out of this mindset that we feel ourselves falling in to, day in and day out. But we don't realise that, because mental health illnesses won't allow us to. They want to take control, they want us to feel like crap all day, they want us to see the glass as half empty instead of half full.
And that is okay.
Don't get me wrong, somedays (well, the majority of the time) I don't want to get out of bed and face the day. I don't want to feel motivated, (what even is motivation these days?!) and I certainly don't want to put on a 'brave' face, smile and say "yeah I'm fine" when I'm really not.
And that is okay.
I don't want to get dressed or put on a full face of makeup, just because that's what is deemed as acceptable these days. I don't want to tame my hair from it's unruly frizz, straighten it or put it in cute little french plaits.
And that my friends, is okay.
In no way, shape or form am I saying that it is okay to feel or suffer from depression- all I am saying is that it is okay to feel this way, because I know how it feels and I know how hard a day-to-day battle with it is. I am not saying that we should be consumed by this irritable darkness, or let it win. But sometimes, just SOMETIMES it is okay to feel this way. Because a battle can be exhausting, tiring and it can feel as though there are no chances of you winning that battle. But one day you will. One day you will be victorious, and all of these mini battles that you have to try and 'win' on a daily basis won't seem like battles anymore, and you will smile. You will smile again, you won't feel tired and you will want to get out of bed, put you favourite outfit on AND TAME YOUR HAIR IN TO CUTE LITTLE FRENCH PLAITS TOO.
So if you suffer from any mental health illness whatever that may be, I just want you to know that it it's okay. You are allowed to feel these ways sometimes, and you are allowed to recover in whatever way you see fit. But just remember that these mental health illnesses that are dragging us down? They won't win. They won't be victorious. They won't exists for much longer because, they cannot exits if we do not let them to.
You just carry on being you.
And that is okay.
